Do you still think of me fondly?
As you lay your head to rest on the pillow where I used to dream beside you
Do you miss me in the same way that I miss you?
Do I truly miss you or just the version of you I first met?
You used to smile at me from between my thighs
Now you avoid my eye at the dinner table
Making excuses to avoid my messages
My heart grows colder as you fade away
I was just a convenience until I was an inconvenience
In my dreams you convince me it was real
but it’s not real it’s all in my head and it always has been
since you’re gone, I can erase the man in my head
a month has passed
I no longer miss the sweetness of your words
The small moments that break up the silences
I fill the void with my successes
Kissing boys at the bus stop where you left me
Leaving lipstick stains on coffee cups instead of your lips
Making my mark on the world without someone beside me
I deserve to be loved the way I love and cherish myself